Dreams

Spending all my money on phone cards
Waiting for my ship to come in
In from that ocean
Come home to this sea
Harboring in me

I don't believe in four-leaf clovers
Or the luck they're supposed to bring
I've used all my wild cards
But there's something I can do
To get close to you

I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you

Thinking 'bout every little thing we ever did crazy
Sipping on that memory lane
That lane never closes
Seven days of the week
I can drive in my sleep cause

'Cause I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you

Dreams I will share
When I see you again
And I'll see you again pretty soon
I pray but until then I've got dreams

I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you

-Gavin DeGraw

Better Together

There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing but I can try for your heart
Our dreams - and they are made out of real things like a
Shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart like
Why are we here? and where do we go? and how come its so hard?
Not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at them stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they’ll be gone
When the morning light sings or brings new things
For tomorrow night you see
That they’ll be gone too
Too many things I have to do

But if all of these dreams
Might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

I believe in memories
They look so
So pretty when I sleep
Hey now and
And when I wake up
You look so pretty
Sleeping next to me

But there is
Not enough time
And there is no
No song I could sing
And there is no
Combination of words
I could say
But I will still
Tell you one thing
We're better together

-Jack Johnson

Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

-Daniel Powter

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Perks Quote #4

"I would die for you. But I won't live for you."
... the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people.

Love always,
Charlie

Beautiful Day

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day

-U2

Perks Quote #3

Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think the only perspective is to really be there. Because it's okay to feel things. And to be who you are about them.

Love always,
Charlie

Perks Quote #2

I just thought about the word "special" ... I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes. And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do.

Love always,
Charlie

Perks Quote #1

This will be the first of many quotes from Stephen Chbosky's "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" because it is a wonderful book. If you haven't read it, you should.

I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands ... I need to know that these people exist.

Love always,
Charlie

Head Over Feet

I had no choice
But to hear you
You stated your case
Time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like
I'm a princess
I'm not used to
Liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over
In spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall
Head over feet
And don't be surprised if I love you
For all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick
And it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver
Than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over
In spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall
Head over feet
And don't be surprised if I love you
For all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer o
Of unconditional things
You held your breath a
And the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener
That I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt
This healthy before
I've never wanted
Something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over
In spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall
Head over feet
And don't be surprised if I love you
For all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You've already won me over
In spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall
Head over feet
And don't be surprised if I love you
For all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

-Alanis Morrissette

Live for Today

Show me the road and I will find my own
You build your bridges and I'll burn 'em down
So far away and all alone I roam
I'm takin' chances in the here and now

And all you wonder is who's for sale
Well you won't know now and I won't tell
You're always hiding throwing up your hands
While heroes ride again

And god only knows all the places I've been
But I love this life that I'm living in
I won't look back to regret yesterday
We're not handed tomorrow so I'll live for today

Another day and yet another's done
Spending a life living within the past
I'll take the chance before the chance has gone
You never know when it may be your last

But still you wonder who's for sale
Well you won't know now and I won't tell
You're always hiding throwing up your hands
While heroes ride again

And god only knows all the places I've been
But I love this life that I'm living in
I won't look back to regret yesterday
We're not handed tomorrow so I'll live for today

We'll never know it when we run out of time
'Til it's all over with
And there'll be no where to run
We'll never say it but we're over out heads
And we're drowning inside
All of these things we've said

And god only knows all the places I've been
But I love this life that I'm living in
I won't look back to regret yesterday
We're not handed tomorrow so I'll live for today

God only knows all the places I've been
But I love this life that I'm living in
I won't look back to regret yesterday
We're not handed tomorrow so I'll live for today

-3 Doors Down

Doesn't Remind Me

I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need

Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So descretely
We won't look back

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need

I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
If it doesn't remind me of anything

-Audioslave

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Konstantine

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big ... dreams
It's always you, and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
I wake up lying in a patch
Of four-leafed clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No, could you let me go
I didn't think so

And you don't want to be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had ... crashed
And it did
Because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams, in them I learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
Well I don't think I care
And if I hurt you, then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do was touch her
Long ... blonde ... hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights that we were drinking
Oh they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
And why i had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World
And those nights in my car
When the first star you see
May not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
Just to lie with my mistakes
To live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock, it's 11:11
Now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, they'll never hurt you like I do
No ... no ... no, no, no, no, no, no

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did
Hey, you know, you keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the fucked up things I did
Hey, maybe, baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

You spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said:
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we go to sleep, but this time not alone, no no
And you kiss me in your living room
I know, I know you miss me in your living room
'Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said: does anybody need that room
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine

-Something Corporate

Shakespeare Quote #3

I memorized this whole speech too!

Hamlet: To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a see of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th' opressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
The patient merit of th' unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietous make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscious does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.
-Shakespeare, Hamlet

Right Where I Belong

There's a difference in spending time with me
And killing time while I'm there
On too many people and too many things
And it makes me feel like hell
You're half gone as I can see
And all of this she says to me

There's too many questions
And too many strings
And they won't keep this thing tied
On a roller coaster ride
It feels like I'm lying
Next to a ghost at night

I don't know why I gave you my heart
'Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But in spite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

I know I get a little bit crazy
But I never done you no wrong
Well I get distracted and carried away
And it's been this way too long
But I don't know what you need from me
'Cause all I know is what I can see

There's too many questions
And too many strings
And they won't keep this thing tied
On a roller coaster ride
It feels like I'm lying
Next to a ghost at night

I don't know why I gave you my heart
'Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But in spite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

I'm right where I belong
Go on, play it for me son

There's too many questions
And too many strings
And they won't keep this thing tied
On a roller coaster ride
It feels like I'm lying
Next to a ghost at night

I don't know why I gave you my heart
'Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But in spite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

-3 Doors Down

It's for the Best

And it takes more time
Than I've ever had
Drains the life from me
Makes me want to forget
As young as I was
I felt older back then
More disciplined
Stronger and certain

But I was scared to death of eternity
I was saved by grace but destroyed by naivety
And I... lied... to my...self
And said... it... was for... the best

And now faith is replaced
With a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was
Now that I'm older
And I know much more
Than I did back then
But the more I learn
The more I can't understand

And I've become content with this life that I lead
Where I drink to much
And don't believe in much of anything
And I... lie... to my...self
And say... it's... for... the best

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that'll never come

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that'll never come

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that'll never come
(I... lie... to my...self)

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that'll never come
(And say... it's... for... the best)

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that'll never come
(I... lie... to my...self)

We're moving forward
But holding ourselves back
And we're waiting on
Something that will never come
(And say... it's... for... the best)

-Straylight Run

What Might Have Been

Sure I think about you now and then
But it's been a long long time
I've got a good life now I've moved on
So when you cross my mind

I try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

We could sit and talk about this all night long
And wonder why we didn't last
Yes they might be the best days
We will ever know
But we'll have to leave them in the past

So try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

That same old look in your eyes
It's a beautiful night
I'm so tempted to stay
But too much time has gone by
We should just say goodbye
And turn and walk away

And try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

No we'll never know
What might have been

-Little Texas

The Worst Day Ever

It's just been that bad of a day ...

6 a.m.
The clock is ringing
I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cause I don't think I'm gonna make it

I punch in
I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock,
But it's not moving
'Cause every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating (on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

it's so long
I can't go on
it's so long
I can't go on

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

-Simple Plan

Bad Day

Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
Left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

No...

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

Oh and had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day...again"

She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day..."

-Fuel

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New American Classic

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

-Taking Back Sunday

Fight Club Quote #6

To all my runner friends ... this is for you.

I ran. I ran until my muscles burned and my veins pumped battery acid. Then I ran some more.
-Narrator

Shakespeare Quote #2

Phebe: ... tell this youth what 'tis to love.
Silvius: It is to be all made of sighs and tears...
It is to be all made of faith and service...
It is to be all made of fantasy,
All made of passion and all made of wishes,
All adoration, duty, and observance,
All humbleness, all patience and impatience,
All purity, all trial, all observance...
-from Shakespeare's As You Like It

Shakespeare Quote #1

I memorized this entire speech ...

Jaques: All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.
-Shakespeare, As You Like It

Fight Club Quote #5

Something about this quote just struck me when I was watching this movie Saturday night for the millionth time. I just like it ...

Fuck you, I won't do it.
-Tyler Durden

Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

-Linkin Park

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Dirty Little Secrets

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this line back

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know
Who has to know

-All-American Rejects

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Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

-Green Day

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Hanging On

God I’m in this place again
I’m trying so hard not to fall
But everything keeps coming down
With the rain
And I try so hard I forget to call

Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am
Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am

I come to You with all that I am
I bring to You all that I have
And all I have is nothing
And I keep on trying
And all I want is You

Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am
Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am

And as I sit here
In the midst of You
I come to You
I come with all that I am
And as I sit here
In the midst of You
I come to You
I come with all that I am

Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am
Everybody’s looking around
And wants to be found
And I’m just hanging on
I give You all that I am

All that I am
And I'm barely hanging on
I'll give You all that I am
You're everything I am
And I'm barely hanging on
And I'm barely hanging on

And I'm barely hanging on
I give you all that I am

-Everyday Sunday

The Boys of the Summer

Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, when I get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today
I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice inside my head said,
"Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but

I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

-Ataris

Swing Life Away

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Until you hold my hand ...

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away

-Rise Against

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Right Here

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as I can take
And you're so independent
You just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way

But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting

-Staind

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Existentialism on Prom Night

When the sun came up
We were sleeping in
Sunk inside our blankets
Sprawled across the bed
And we were dreaming

There are moments when
When I know it and
The world revolves around us
And we're keeping it
Keep it all going
This delicate balance
Vulnerable all knowing

Sing like you think no one's listening
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would kill for this

Sing like you think no one's listening
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would

Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
We're glad for what we've got
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out
Right in front of us

Sing like you think no one's listening
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would

Sing like you think no one's listening
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would

Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything

-Straylight Run

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Sea of Faces

I see the city lights all around me
Everyone's obscure
Ten million people each with their problems
Why should anyone care?

And in Your eyes I can see
I am not just a man,
Vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread,
Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Sometimes my life it feels so trivial
Immersed in the greatness of space
Yet somehow You still find the time for me
It's then You show me Your love

And in Your eyes I can see
And in Your arms I will be

I am not just a man,
Vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread,
Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

If only my one heart
Was all You'd gain from all it cost
Well I know You would have still been a man
With a reason
To willingly offer Your life

I am not just a man,
Vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread,
Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Just one in a million faces

-Kutless

The Change Inside of Me

Pardon me
If I've been acting strange
I haven't been myself lately
What you see
Is a person rearranged
Someone affected me greatly
And I've got so much to say
Ever since Jesus looked my way

Gonna raise my voice like thunder
And leave the world in wonder of the change
The change inside of me
And I will never stop believing
That You are the reason for this change
The change inside of me

Everyday
I'm taking in the view
Of His glory around me
I'm awake
And I have been made new
By the One who has found me
Words just can't say enough
When all I can feel is love

Gonna raise my voice like thunder
And leave the world in wonder of the change
The change inside of me
And I will never stop believing
That You are the reason for this change
The change inside of me

Your life You gave for mine to save
It's nothing less than a miracle
Your name I praise, because the change
Inside of me is so beautiful

Gonna raise my voice like thunder
And leave the world in wonder of the change
The change inside of me
And I will never stop believing
That You are the reason for this change
The change inside of me

Gonna raise my voice like thunder
And leave the world in wonder of the change
The change inside of me
And I will never stop believing
That You are the reason for this change

-MercyMe

on the road to beautiful

okay ... so after an absolutely amazing week in philly, this is the first of many songs to try and describe the change i'm going through that i could never say in my own words in a million years because God is just that awesome.

i crumble at Your kiss and grace
i'm a weakling in the dust
teach me how to cling to You
with all my life and all my love

Father come to me, hold me up
'cause i can barely stand
my strength is gone and
my breath is short,
i can't reach out my hands
but my heart is set on a pilgrimage
to heaven's own bright King
so in faltering or victory
i will always sing

and on the road to beautiful
my seasons always change
byt my life is spent on loving You
to know You in Your power and pain

Father come to me, hold me up
'cause i can barely stand
my strength is gone and
my breath is short,
i can't reach out my hands
but my heart is set on a pilgrimage
to heaven's own bright King
so in faltering or victory
i will always sing

You're my portion in this life
You're my strength now in my fight
and to You i pledge my heart
in the pain and in the dark i'll love You
i'll love You, i'll love You, i'll love You...

Father come to me, hold me up
'cause i can barely stand
my strength is gone
and my breath is short
i can't reach out my hands
but my heart is set on a pilgrimage
to heaven's own bringht King
so in faultering or victory
i will always sing

and my heart is set on a pilgrimage
to heaven's own bright King
so in faultering or victory
i will always sing

i'll love You ...
i'll love You ...
i'll love You ...

-Charlie Hall

What Am I To You

What am I to you
Tell me darlin' true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
Oh, to whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

Now if my sky should fall
Would you even call
I've opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I will love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Now if my sky should fall
Would you even call
I will open up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Would you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

-Norah Jones

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The Real Life

Well I wanted to find somewhere to hide
When I opened up and let those fears inside
And I wanted to be anyone else
Only to find that there was no one there but me

But I woke up to the real life
And I realized it's not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothing's real here but I won't stop now until I find
A better part of me

I let those hard days get me down
And all the things I hate got in my way
I could have screamed without a sound
I found myself silenced by those things they say

But I woke up to the real life
And I realized it's not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothing's real here but I won't stop now until I find
A better part of me

That's out there somewhere
And it can't be that far away
That's where I found myself
And I'll find my way out
That's where I'll find out

But I woke up to the real life
And I realized it's not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothing's real here but I won't stop now until I find
A better part of me

-3 Doors Down

To Be Honest

I'm scared to wander outside major keys
So I sing a song that I wrote just to please
The fools and the fakes afraid just like me
To be...honest

So I play pretend with my smile painted on
At best I'm a clown and at worst I'm a con
Convincing the crowd and myself nothing's wrong
To be...honest

My soul is trembling
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that You're making me

I'm leaving the stage
You can turn my lights down
The curtains are closed
And I'm taking my bow
Lord help me remember
Cause I forget how to be honest
Honest

And I rewrote my story without tragedy
Left out the lines that reveal I am weak
Erased every reason for You to save me
To be...honest

My soul is trembling
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that You're making me

I'm leaving the stage
You can turn my lights down
The curtains are closed
And I'm taking my bow
Lord help me remember
Cause I forget how to be honest
Honest
Honest

-Shaun Groves

Serenity

As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting inner light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

I need serenity
I need serenity

-Godsmack

Check out the music video here.

Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be ... me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong, with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

-Matchbox Twenty

Check out the music video here.

Fight Club Quote #4

Only after disaster can we be resurrected.
-Tyler Durden

I Hope You Dance

Karen wrote me a letter with the lyrics to this song a little over a year ago I guess, but I never realized how much they meant to me until now. A little piece of advice I'm passing on from a friend: Don't ever stop dancing.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

-Lee Ann Womack

Check out the music video here.

Bitter Sweet Symphony

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah,

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
Try to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet yeah

You know I can change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

I can't change my mold
no, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
no, no, no

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Have you ever been down?
Have you ever been down?

-The Verve

Fight Club Quote #3

This one deserves an explaination, though I'm not sure I can give it one ... There's something ironically similar to the words and my current life, but I can't put my finger on it just yet. Read it and leave comments for me ... maybe we can figure it out together. But either way, it's an awesome quote.

I felt like destroying something beautiful.
-Narrator

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for...

-U2

Behind Those Eyes

Ohh yeah
Ohh yeah

You said I've got something to say
Then you got that look in your eye
There is something you've got to know
You said it as you started to cry

I've been down the wrong road tonight
And I swear I'll never go there again
I've seen this face once before
And I don't think I can do this again

There's something I can't see
There's something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing I can say
'Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide

As you turned to walk away
I saw another look in your eye
And even though it hurt like it did
I couldn't let this be your goodbye
No, no

You say that your sorry
And you say now that it hurts you the same
Is there something here to believe
Or is it just another part of the game

There's something I can't see
Something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing I can say
'Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide

Ohh yeah
Ooooooo
Ohh woah

Behind those eyes you lie
Behind those eyes you hide

There's something I can't see
Something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing I can say
'Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide

There's nothing I can say
That's ever gonna make you change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide

Behind those eyes you hide

-3 Doors Down

Fight Club Quote #2

This one goes out to everyone who's met me post-Will, and a few people who have gotten to know me better since ...

You met me at a very strange time in my life.
-Narrator

Never Alone

I waited for You today
But You didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I’m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I’m never alone

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I’m never alone

-Barlow Girl

Yellow Ribbon

Around her hair she wore a yellow ribbon
She wore it in the spring time, in the early month of May
And if you asked her why the heck she wore it
She'd say she wore it for her soldier who was far, far away

Fight Club Quote #1

It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.
-Tyler Durden

Dangerous To Know

Some secrets need to be kept
Some stories should never be told
Some reasons shouldn't be understood
They just might turn your blood cold

Who needs all the answers?
Who takes all the chances?
Who said the truth's gonna save you?
When the truth can be dangerous

Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from you
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know

I was a law onto myself
When you found me out on my own
Together nothing was sacred
Together we where alone

Who needs all the questions?
Who lost their direction?
Who said a lie's gonna break you?
When a lie could be dangerous

Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from you
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know

Ignorance is bliss
You're safe when you resist
There's no safety in a kiss like this
It's dangerous
So kiss me
Kiss me

Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous
Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know

Some secrets need to be kept

-Hilary Duff

Alfie

What have I got? Really? Some money in my pocket, some nice threads, fancy car at my disposal, and I'm single. Yeah... unattached, free as a bird... I don't depend on nobody and nobody depends on me... My life's my own. But I don't have peace of mind. And if you don't have that, you've got nothing. So... what's the answer? That's what I keep asking myself. What's it all about? You know what I mean?

-Alfie (2004)

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Stolen from Jennifer's away message ...

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics

'Cause I don't want you to know where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been

This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it
See that line, well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talked to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can’t let that happen again
'Cause then you’ll see my heart
In the saddest state it’s ever been

This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it
See that line, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there, I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it
See that line, well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me

So sorry for the person I became
So sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

-Relient K

Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

-Kelly Clarkson

I Saw

When I first heard this song I fell in love with it ... Who knew it could ever be so true? Here's my song of the day.

It's amazing
The look in your eyes
Like you could save me
But you won't even try
And then you tell me again
How everything will be alright

And if I told you
That I'm sorry
Would you tell me you were wrong
Would you hold me down forever
If I came to your for answers

I saw
Pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up, again
Cause I would be heavenly
If baby you'd just rescue me, now

I'm surrounded
You spill
All alive and brand new
And I'll forget about you long enough
To forget why I need to

I saw
Pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
Cause I would be heavenly if
Baby you'd just rescue me now

The days are
Drifting away from me
I still wake up
Burning through everything
It's all I know
Somebody save me now

And I saw
Pictures in my head
I swear I saw you opening up again
Cause I would be heavenly if
Baby you'd just rescue me now
(I saw)
Pictures in my head
I saw you opening up again
Cuz I would be heavenly if
Baby you'd just rescue me now

-Matt Nathanson

Burning Bright

I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation
Now and then I consider my hesitation

The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning ... burning bright

I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express my situation

The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning bright

The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning...

There's nothing ever wrong
But nothin's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines
It's not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new
Some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason

The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning bright
(I pretend...)

The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning...

I feel like there is no need for conversation

-Shinedown

Breathe (2 AM)

2 AM and she calls me cause I’m still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don’t love him and winter just wasn’t my season
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you’re all here for the very same reason

Cause you can’t jump the track
We’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain’t been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he’s been down for while
But my God it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I’ll just sing about it

Cause you can’t jump the track
We’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There’s a light at the end of this tunnel you shout
Cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made
You’ll just make them again if you’ll only try turnin’ around

2 AM and I’m still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper it’s no longer inside of me
Threaten’ the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin’ out aloud
And I know that you’ll use them however you want to.

But you can’t jump the track
We’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand ... yeah breath
Just breathe, oh breathe

-Anna Nalick

Check out the music video here.

This Is Your Life

Okay... forget guys for a few days... forget flirting and messing around... This is my life...

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes

This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose

-Switchfoot

Why Do You Love Me

This time I didn't steal it from anyone else's journal, it just happened to be posted the same day. We've been listening to the same radio station, apparently. I might go back and delete the lyrics I don't like out of this song later, but for now, this is all of it. I mostly like the first verse... but there are lines in the other verses I like too, so I just left it as-is.

I'm no Barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things
And I have made mistakes

And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?

You're not some little boy
Why ya actin' so surprised?
You're sick of all the rules
Well I'm sick of all your lies

Now, I've held back a wealth of shit I think I'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don't feel good?
Nothin' ever came from nothing man; oh man, ain't that the truth?

Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you're sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but I think that I'm right
And you've still got the most beautiful face
It just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
I do it again
I do it again
I do it again

Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
It's driving me crazy
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?

-Garbage

Follow Me

This song actually reminds me a lot of at least three different people, so when you read/listen to the lyrics, please don't take them all as if they were for you. If you know me like the people this song reminds me of do, then you will know the part that is intended for you.

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why,
You can't turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Don't worry 'bout the ring you wear
Just as long as no one knows
Then nobody can care
Your feelin guilty
And I'm well aware
But you don't look ashamed
And baby I'm not scared
I'm singing

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
you're better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go astray
We'll be alright if you don't ask me to stay

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why,
You can't turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

I'm singing

Follow me, and
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

-Uncle Cracker

Check out the music video here.

Scars

Okay... so I stole this song from another person's LiveJournal. But it's been stuck in my head and it keeps comin' on the radio and I think of [person] every time I hear it... It applies more to them than it does to me, but it's still a great song...

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
GO FIX YOURSELF

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I CAN'T HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF
BUT AT ELAST I CAN SAY I TRIED
I'M SORRY BUT I GOTTA MOVE ON WITH MY OWN LIFE

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

-Papa Roach

I Miss You

(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

-Blink 182

Check out the music video here.

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

-Kelly Clarkson

Everything You Want

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you
And I don't know why

And I don't know why
Why...
I don't know

-Vertical Horizon

Mad World

From the Donnie Darko soundtrack... Great movie...

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I’m dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very, very
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I’m dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very, very
Mad world
Mad world

Enlarge your world
Mad world

-Gary Jules

(I Hate) Everything About You

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

-Three Days Grace

Check out the music video here.

Mas Que Amor

Español es una lengua bonita, ¿no piensas? ¡Me lo encanta!

Antes nos amábamos
Y ahora es mucho mas
Cuando te beso no puedo explicar,
Lo que siento en mi corazon por ti

No se que voy a hacer,
Si te llego a perder
Por que yo sabia lo que iba a sentir
Y yo solo no quiero estar

Yo se que es mas que amor,
Babé yo lo siento
Cuando estoy cerca de ti
Yo se que es mas que amor,
Que piensas tú...?

Palabras no puedo explicar,
Porque me siento yo asi...

[Instrumental]

Palabras no puedo explicar,
Porque me siento yo asi...

No se que voy a hacer,
Si te llego a perder
Por que yo sabia lo que iba a sentir
Y yo solo no quiero estar

Yo se que es mas que amor,
Babé yo lo siento
Cuando estoy cerca de ti
Yo se que es mas que amor,
Babé yo lo siento,
Cuando estoy cerca de ti
Yo se que es mas que amor,
Que piensas tú...?

-Los Lonely Boys

Mire el vídeo de la música aquí.

In The End

I really do think this is my life's theme song...

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal

Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to
Watch you go

I kept everything inside / and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)

Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

-Linkin Park

Check out the music video here.

I Wish It Would Rain Down

You know I never meant to see you again
But I only passed by as a friend, yea
All this time I stayed out of sight
I started wondering why

Now I, oo, now I wish it would rain down, down on me
Oo, yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Oo, yes I wish it would rain, down on me now
Oo, yes I wish it would rain on me

You said you didn't need me in your life
Oh, I guess you were right, yea
Oo, I never meant to cause you no pain
But it looks like I did it again

Now I, now I know I wish it would rain down, down on me
Oo, yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Oo, girl I wish it would rain down, down on me
Oo, yes I wish it would rain on me

Though your hurt is gone,
Mines hanging on, inside
And I know it's eating me through,
It's eating me through every night and day
I'm just waiting on your sign

'Cause I know, I know
I never meant to cause you no pain
And I realize I let you down, oh
But I know in my heart of heart
I know I'm never gonna hold you again

Now I, now I know I wish it would rain down, down on me
Oh, you know I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Oo, yes I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes you know I wish it would rain on me, rain down on me

Just rain down on me
Just let it rain down
Let it rain down
Let it rain down, oh yea
Let it rain down
Rain down over me
Just let it rain down
Just let it rain down
Let it rain down
Just let it rain

-Phil Collins

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Mockingbird

Here come the nightingales
Or could it be the mockingbird
They're at my windowsill
They flew in as soon as they heard
Enter the doctor and the nurse
Say my condition's getting worse
They take my pulse and shake their heads
They recommend I stay in bed
They say you are my condition
You are indecision
You, what is wrong with you

You say you love me but you don't love me
You say you hate me but you don't hate me
You say you'd leave me but you can't leave me
Because you love me
What's it gonna be
What is wrong with you
Is what is wrong with me

Here goes nothing
I just swallowed the pill
The room's spinning out of control
Although I'm lying still
And those mockingbirds
They're hovering above
They're talking back and forth
About the trouble with our love

You say you love me but you don't love me
You say you hate me but you don't hate me
You say you'd leave me but you can't leave me
Because you love me
What's it gonna be
What is wrong with you
Is what is wrong with me

Oh my God
I think I've actually lost the plot
Oh my God
My brain is fried and my nerves are shot
And why not
You say control me no don't control me
You say hold me no don't hold me
You say you'd marry me
But you can't marry me
Because you love me but you don't love me
Because you hate me but you don't hate me
Because you'd leave me but you can't leave me
Here come the mocking birds
Because you love me but you don't love me
Because you hate me but you don't hate me
Because you'd leave me but you can't leave me
Because you love me
What's it gonna be
What is wrong with you
Is what is wrong with me

-Low Millions